Short story ANIMA by Mihailo Dragojevic

MIHAILO DRAGOJEVIC

ANIMA

My name is so and so. I am everything except that.

If I am everything except that title, what am I in fact?

Why and to whom am I referring to?

Even that you are watching from the cube into a cube, it is clear who we are, what we are and where we are, and it is very clear WHAT WE ARE NOT.

We are not that cube. The cube at which you are now just looking at and the symbols related to it are just a substitute for reality, actuality, for that what is. We have created it simply because of an inferiority complex from what is.

That WHAT IS scare us because we can’t control it, and actually the need to control what is, is in fact, an initial not acceptance of the so-called human beings, their condition and unity with all other, which is.

WHAT IS, is the nature, the universe or energy and however we tag that and build barriers around it, it will always be in reality what created us all, and from what we will never escape.

We can fool ourselves that we create or control the flow, but we are in that flow and the flow influences us. We can agree that we understood this flow, but it will always and only be connected to the sensible part of the flow and detectable by our senses and our conditions which are limited by our being; a product of the flow.

We think we understood something and then we try to apply it on everything. 

That is schizophrenia. 

Look at a circle and a cube and it will be clear what it is about. If you do not understand look at yourself in the mirror and what do you see?

"The product of a culture" or "ruin of the animal''? What is the cube in relation to the circle and what is that cube doing here? 

Who brought it? It could not be us!

Yes, of course, the answer is always somewhere else and generally divided geometrically as we do not exist, in fact it would be what we would loved the most, naturally only in our schizophrenic heads. 

Why would we love that?

So to have the security of response, that we would be comfortable enough to continue to try to dominate over our-self, since over nothing else we can not.

"But cube is a measure of nature!" - said the animal from the depths of the cave, while turning the corpse of another animal on fire, along with its companions, the animals that they thought they are not.

"If we could only explain the same thing to the other animals, we would certainly have more animals roasted on fire and certainly would not be hungry, thirsty, and would have more than we can imagine now in this dark cave!" - angrily said, now, the main animal from the cave.

Exactly that cave in which we crawled that conditioned us to think from it. Some would say that consciousness in and out of the cave are obviously the same, therefore we can conclude that that being was very long in that cave, to the extent it identifies with it, with its existence, of course, in other words, in its own schizophrenia.

That being, that schizophrenic animal will observe life around it, but only to a point which will suits that isolated perspective. Only until the moment that does not touch that self-conditioned mechanism. There the gear will stop and out of it will make a monument in which the nature will be its decoration and the monument, which is a disease, meaning, the essence unchangeable.

Everything is clear to everybody. Everything IS just the opposite.

"Then what else can we expect?!" - howled the corpse in its final turn on the spit.

"Dinner is served!"

Now we are in the cube, we will serve the circles on the cube, where we will sit and eat. If we get bored of all these cubes we will turn on another cube in which will be "our", whole, cubical world, just to forget what we are eating. It will be perfect even though perfection does not exist except in nature and although to "us" the nature does not exist. The only thing that exists is us, "animals that we are not" and our cubes.

The next game will be in a cube, where we will divide, although already divided and we will hit the circle in to cube and vice versa. And we will still have a feeling that nature does not exist, that is, it will seem to us that it is our nature. 

In any case we will try to resemble the cube as much as we can.

We feel in love with the cube. It is perfect for us. It is so perfect that we need urgently to transform the cave into the cube, I think, if you look better from the cube, I wonder how could have we even been able to be in that cave, it was so dark, anything could hide there, I think , for example, ourselves. That is scary enough. In the cube there are no surprises, you know what it is.

Now from our new form everything looks so diverse and separated from one another, as countless worlds unlinked to each other, a bunch of separated cases in our, now linear brains.

"We will not let anything disturb our cubes which we love so much so that we want to be in them even after this game. Forever!" - screamed the animal hitting with its last strength the circle filled with the same content as now dropped from its background.

"No circle will determine me!" - added the same with the last breath.

Everyone knows what is going to be next. The cube is closing above the one and we move on to another, the same cube-like existence.

"What is for sure, it's sure."

That's IT.

Now we know that we don’t want to know anything and we have no problems with that, anyways, because in essence we are not interested in anything.

All of this would be so great like that, only if this world was a square and we were letters on it without anything and like that up to infinity. If that was so, we would not even notice what we are doing and everything would be perfect just to us as a separate, invisible parts without any doubt in it. 

But a cube is not a circle.

It is enough to just for a moment look at the circle that shines over our circle, and thus it is obvious what it actually is. 

Comprehensiveness.

I am one. 

You and I are one. 

All is one. 

Unity.

There are no separate things in reality.

Everything is ONE now and forever. 

"We" can jump out in our eyes for a moment but that moment is still in one.

We can not escape.

There is no exit, no help for our cubical concept, but in the fact it annuls itself. We are neither better nor worse from anything and nothing is better than "us".

Everything works perfectly the way it already is and each performance against it is returning again to the same.

The absence, presence, absence, presence, absence, presence, absence, presence, absence... and so onto the infinity of nature’s perfection.

Only, we are not perfect animals because we do not want to give up from our initial cave, isolation trip. 

Now we realize that we are afraid and that we want to escape. But wherever you go, there you are. 

There is no escape from the nature, meaning there is no escape from self. There is no shelter from the universe, we are here.

Now if only "we" understood, there would be no need even for this letters. Of course not, because they either way came out from the square.

All is one. 

Both good and bad. 

ONE, because positive without negative doesn’t go. Subtract one and you already are in the confusion of the isolated world that you want to idealize
though not seeing the reality you are trying to destroy only for yourself.

Give up and understand why you are afraid. Understand what you want, and especially why and how you want it. Is that really your wish? What is wish? Where from? Why the need for all that...

"Enough with the shit, monkey!" - suddenly the main animal angrily shouted on other confused animals, who definitely understood the situation in the cube since their cave days. The only thing they didn't understand was why they were called "monkeys", but at the moment that was not so important to them. It seemed as if the animal is disturbed, psychologically distanced itself, without desire for further so-called communication.

In order to have control over the animal, you needs to isolate it, but give it some kind of "respect". Give it to eat.

That’s why we are necessary to ourselves, and of course, that idea needs to be "multiplied", because the better the comfort - the better the isolation. In every sense.

Why are we, human animals, the only ones who are schizophrenic? Can't we let those animals live with its schizophrenic shapes and we, the animals, can turn to the reality of life, WHAT IS, with all the other animals, living organisms?

Well that's impossible.

The animal alone with its problem has to infect other; otherwise there would not be a problem, because everything influences everything.

And so the cube stood antagonizing the nature, pretending like it was always there, and it was as if these animals have not alone with their passionate illness artificially held it in life. As if the natural energies, forces, winds, waves, vibrations, frequencies of reality were constantly reminding that cube on a circle. But it seems that the cube will understand what it is not, before it will the one who made it.

"Yes, yes, of course, everyone understands there what it want." Parts of awareness scattered around the corners...

Still in the cube.

This is now becoming really boring, but it does not matter, as if we are asked anything, except, why don’t we stop with that "trip".

Then we realize that we are "that trip" and completely forget how it came to be. That trip makes us special, the chosen animals, of course, only in our, schizophrenic minds, which we are no longer even aware of. Then we become gods and ALL begins to interrupt with the concept of the same, artificial, pushed, isolated trip, I mean everything that it is not that, and what it is not, is WHAT IS. The nature. 

The universe. The reality. Now and forever.

We have a really big problem...

It had a tree and ALL, and it climbed on a cube and jumped from it.

It seems that it definitely thought it will live forever. Just wondering where did it get that idea? Caves are doing wonders.

"Life is what scares me, death is easy." - someone repeated whispering from a corner, its known where and when.

"What more could we do to make our lives even more wonderful?" - asked the animal to itself watching the square on the ceiling from a square in a square, which in agreement with related animals it called home.

"How to multiply myself now, it does not go anyhow...?" - sadly spoke to itself still alone, now old "non-animal".

Don't worry! Such as you are born only once, but they are copied infinitely, do not worry a thing. Your game will not fade. Anomalies only progress, the sicker the better, and you're a special case. Spoke the voice from the same.

The animal light up to it, as if it said something essential to itself, but it just was not sufficiently aware, of course, for its own satisfaction, to explain it to the end, is it talking to itself, and why it sounded so.

How should it understand that?

"O my creator, are you the same as I?" - asked the smiling animal to its negative in a rectangle that was hanging somewhere in the now so-called home. It didn't wait for a reply to conclude.

"Now I understand!" - it said.

"In fact everything needs to be fixed! Everything is fucked up and imperfect..." - with a pleasant smile added the animal's reflection from the mirror.

Repetition is the only way to kill a part of animal’s nature in every sense, but not to kill the animal. That Living corpse becomes functional by itself, for itself, while that "itself" is a product of the same conditioned, in that way isolated behavior.

Some animals call that a GAME, some EGO and some would not say, I didn’t ask them.

Hmmmmm... "I didn’t ask them." Why that now? This is the EGO, as someone may understand; life of the animal in the form of a picture of itself and the relationship of that auto-isolated picture with all that exists around the animal. It is a product of conditioning the animal by repetition.

"Enough of the stories about these animals, you better talk a little bit about us!" - proudly shouted among us all, one well-known animal, which till now as some thought that it is not.

It is difficult to communicate with the animal especially if only one is convinced that it is not. It is destructive, because just in order to prove something it needs to be dominate, at the very end over itself. Isolation again.

Poor animal it invented all that, only to...

Suddenly square with 4 circles is rolling on a flat, inserted surface. In it sits irritated animal, which says that the creator of similar-thinking is running it by baking corpses of once, living organisms.

Of course it says that itself is not an animal and offers as a proof it’s occurrence to all the other living organisms on guessing.

Many animals from the cube love the cube and have the similar feeling so therefore do not feel the isolation, but the unity with the concept of that animal.

Oh, how they are "nicely" playing, proving once again, one to another, that they are not animals.

Stream flows and the curious animal is nervously looking into a cube, seeking for anything that can justify its own existence. It searched for any form, letter, picture or sign that another animal had left for it. It asked mainly for what it known, or what it knows it will be found. It was looking for tranquility, needed some kind of peace convinced that in that is its point of existence.

Of course, accidently it found everything except that.

"Well it is not just by chance." - said the animal to itself.

"Cubes are rolling with circles and that is the thing." - it added.

A lot of it’s clear, but the problem is still how to "multiply" it? 

Let’s go back to the cave, so that the main animal can
explain to us what to do.

Thus - "We will multiply the squares into cubes. Each of us needs its own. So.... you get one, I get one, she and he get one. Each non-animal gets one. Now further additional fertilization can take place. Goal is of course a more secure existence of us, so called non-animals."

From the beginning we will be playing with our world. We will simplify everything, since things are much more difficult to us, it is complicated to address them directly. In that we will get help from our new forms, which are the product of our new thinking. 

OUR, so yes, that are WE. 

So, isn’t it nice... WE without US wouldn't be able to play, of course. It is just a pity that nobody but us will play with us. Certainly they don't know the rules. We need to teach them. It's a shame that they do not play when it is obviously a lot of fun. 

Of course, the beauty is the essence of OUR GAME, because everything else to us it is not, and we know what that else to us is. All the more we multiply, the more we will be able to play, to infinity if it is necessary, and obviously it is.

Infinity has tripped us from the start and infinity is where we want us and our cubes.

"Now that we have it all nicely arranged we need to fix everything that is wrong.
That means, all but the cubes, in translation. Nothing is right. No other animals, or other organisms, nature, universe, or of course doubt in ourselves. It all has to be according to cube from the START, so perfectly and motionless as in our, so far linear brains."
- repeated the animal to itself, as a representative of all the others similarly inclined, so called "non-animals ".

Non- Existence. Existe....

Little animal is sitting in a cube on the square, moving simplified forms, some of them translated, simplified from the nature, intentionally left there by other animals. Some might say that they are playing with themselves. 

We can conclude by its behavior, that it is very calm with these forms, as if it knows them the whole life, the whole existence. It looks as if it doesn't need anything now, except maybe some other animal of similar condition, or maybe not even that. It has to play, it had learned that so far. Otherwise, it will sit alone in the cube and it may again ask itself why it is there and whether there is something outside that cube.

Rectangle is opening on the square of a cube, the same cube in which the same small animal is living. From a rectangle into a cube are entering two big animals that are taking a little animal through the same rectangle from which they just came in.

Now they are on the open.

"Do you see EVERYTHING what the cube is NOT?" - asked one of the animals the little animal.

"Yes..." - answered quietly to the big animal’s question, apparently now frightened little animal.

"Well, all that IS NOT, WILL BE!" - added the animal, continuing with the story.

"You are now little and a frightened animal, but you are scared enough to realize how much you need it now. We are here for you and you are there for US. "

Pit in the eyes of the little animal, watching everything that the cube is not, nor will it ever be, together with itself. 

Silence.

"Do not scare it now, it's still a little." - said the second animal to the first.

"We will talk about it when it grows."

Story ANIMA written by Mihailo Dragojevic / 2012.

INSIGHT

The most profound scenes
without camera, paper
square or screen
I have seen

Deepest music and flights
Inside my mind

flow without lights
or any other images or sights

no numbers
no fights
no artist
no arts
no separation
no parts
no brain
no hearts
no role
no stitches for a hole

no fear
but here & near
my dear

only seasons & sun
in eternal circle of fun
the inner being
can’t run

Extend or fade what i say
don’t limit your way
mind didn’t go
in order to stay

and I can’t find the letter as such
to express the sense of human touch

as we well know
energy is the only show

as our words cannot express
the deepest truth they may oppress
but also they could be a bridge or a wall
where we nail our feelings in & all

monuments in time
squished like a lime

so present is in now forever to be
undefined in the field around we

It all depends on you & me
are we gonna let it all be?
The nature will take them to see

TREE ME

Anchored in,
root the hood,
carry out as one should
or wood as a sprout
from inside out
and than just rot
that which is not,
that which you found
so burning hot
and a knot
which it is not

As a tree free I stay,
a way all there is to say

Never learned to move to sway
or play this human game
but rather to live and find
the universe in all, ok?

As a trained animal I had to die
just to see I was blind
and it was me
I was leaving behind
and each sparkle
that shines from my eye
shows what is square
and what is round.

Than just drop a leaf
like a sign of a relief.

CASE TO BE

All dies tomorrow
Same death with yesterday

Today is a new day
A new shine without a say

Words can just sway
monuments like hay

All is ok on it's own way

Accept living real as the rest
we can never feel

None to blame
Nothing to gain
Flow is in our vain
String is in our brain

All which is there
Can not be a word
But act anyway

EMPTY FARTS

It's all farts
In the empty parts

But it stink
Just for us to think

That what we do
It's now up to you

And if you ask
What was the task?

Reality it's time to heal
Nature we must feel

FAKE

Human above all
Animal without a soul
Head with a hole
Margin with no flow
Fake as a cake
When it threw the ball
With no mistake
Like preparing a stake

DESIRE

Love is a power for desire
We all know that old tire
To roll higher and higher
But inside our mind we frier
Selfish desire, to divide one from the whole
and prison it in a shelter below
Were we always so low?
Couldn’t we just let it all go
to flow and flow above this great fall?

A HIT

Alien shit is always a Hit
From the bottom of an Old Pit
We all knew that Myth

CUBE

Cube of rocks
Mind in a box
Life of chocks
Plastic cocks
Women gay
That’s OK
Or just a way
To sway the life all day

BEAM

Square screen
I love that beam
It shines and finds
The spot to rot
Inside our mind

MULEGHOUL

Fool for a ghoul it’s just a strong Mule
That likes to pull and pull until it’s all full
Hey you stupid Mule
You really like that school?
All that muddy pool
Where you bath and rule

POWER NANNY

Power Nanny will work out you many
Will do any trick
Just so we don’t think

SADNESS

Only human sadness in nature is a madness

SHEEPLE

Sheeple doped out of their minds
As a symbol mixed with all signs
Is that what the Nature went through?
I’ll leave this up to you

START

Ending communication
With all nation
And start the integration
Without imagination
For our planet and our real nature

STINKY FLOWER

Behind that stinky flower
It’s all Natures Power

Don’t cut or follow
That’s a true sorrow

For animals of tomorrow
Don’t sell or borrow

Be here Now, not Tomorrow

THE GROOVE

Movin’ – movin’
I saw that Ego shakin’ – groovin’
After it goes crying – trying
In the Mix of bodies frying – laying

END

Ending the bending
No worth of sending
Or seeing any feeling
In changing the nature
Of Zoo meaning

THING BEHIND THE KING

Stick with me King
I’ll teach you everything
I work below the sink
I’ll teach you everything

Hey you little thing
You are really a big thing

Do you know how to think?
Or I teach you how to sing?
Do you know every stink?

And your Ego is in a place
Where you don’t have any chase
In that empty space

Or what else to say
All for you it’s ok

TRANSWASTIK

Plastic fantastic
Very gymnastic
Lobo transwastik

TRIPPING

Black knight tripping the fight
Above all sight
Animals fight

VASE ROSE

No One knows for Ego pose
It’s just like a Vase Rose
Inside where no One knows

VIRTUAL MACHINE

Virtual machine
Closing the scene
Frighten from light
Inside the might
Isolation always and fight
Through the wall of all
Be a hole
On a square
Like a doll
On a pillow
That once you owe

WAIT TO BE TRUE

You waiting to be dead
In your muddy bed

Where you cry
and just a lie
To oneself
with all it’s breath

Why is that so?
Can we build it in a wall?

All we do is waiting for you
To wake the fuck up, 
Transcend
And it’s enough

WHY ARE WE

Why are we meant to be
A failure till eternity

Or it’s just anxiety
From suppressed reality

UPSIDE

Down and Burn
Or fly with Nature and Learn

WOO HOO

From Moo to You
Animals as a shoe
Take a bite or two
Jumm, Jumm
Woo, Hoo

HEY YOU

Hey there piece of shit
I teach you every Myth
All that is for you
I know it came from Zoo
And there is a cage
In every broken stage
I know why that is true
Once I was like you

DOMINO EFFECT

“She was my only friend,
but she told me what she sold me,
and thought me never to be
that little girl she projected
she saw was in me.”

“That true love will be.”

He is so bold, on his road
everything is showed.

“Very interesting, another graffiti
inside my hole, among them all,
on my beautiful, Chinese wall,
the one I built inside my soul.”

“As it is fun now to watch and see so easily,
with the sunglasses that protects me.”

“From this high so far I can see,
but never who is passing under the tree.“

“I can be whatever I want to be
as long as nobody can see my true me,
otherwise all would run from me
instantaneously.”

“I’m really empty inside, so empty
that nobody would mind to discover
this shell inside, except the one
who wants to be blind.”

“With the sizers I cut all I see fits not.”

She thought he needed to insert
another coin in the empty slot,
so she bought that he made her
forever hot in his rotten mind’s spot.

“With the lies I will wash all their minds
and on my wall they will leave the signs.”

“After all now as you know,
I’m just a vortex of a soul,
tornado in a desert in my whole.”

“I don’t see the other ware,
unless someone is always present there.”

“Don’t move just deeper stay,
until I say OK! OK?”

“There is no other way.”

“I’m so pleasant they will all
leave me a present.”

Another tomb in her empty womb.

Many things she didn’t want to know
as the bricks would fall from that Chinese wall
and the true light would wash it all out.

Sizes were forever more,
endless measurements of how deep
the next fool could score the goal,
but the goal was never more.

The true idiot was he
when he saw the first sight of walls
in the distance of a city that will forever be.

No rain, no bugs, no sea, no plants,
but just she and her city,
a graveyard of blind fools like he.

“Nobody will ever be enough for you honey
except you and your mommy,
which is very funny almost
like creation of money!”

Profane became profound,
stepped over the blind.

She truly hated all those fools and tools
because they believed her lies as rules.

But she needed them to stick
as long as they were sick to pick
and they should never heal,
because than they will feel
the only truth which is real.

“Easy”, she thought, 
“I need someone strong and hot,
and full of walls deep as me
so we can play this brick game
without a shame”

But she would run away
from another desert as one
that he may happens to be.

The blind wanted another blind,
retard another retard,
an object in light
casting a shadow on sight.

Where is the might?
Change? No where in sight!

No change in a cage,
but just rage on a self stage.

Some may guess she knew the rest,
but even the sizers were made of two
and they cut as one like me and you.

EGO

Behold the X, the EGO can't be fixed

CENTER

The wind left, the wind right,
the center I wanted to find

SAME

I could do many things for you,
but could I have the same from you?

HUG ME

JUST HUG ME; underneath it's an order,
so it was the same domination disorder

GIVE UP

Give up that what it's all about,
nature will take them all out

EGOISM

If you don't understand egoism now,
just hold the breath and you have found,
what makes the world go round & round

CRY

True lie
Is a business tie
Witch makes us high
Until we cry

MAYBE

Maybe hugging & fucking with
licking, kissing & sucking,
is what this world
now is lacking...

MIRROR

Mirror reflects our image; it's a game,
so stop staring through that frame

MY ME

In the end I will find My Me,
because I'm not born to be
with Anybody

LOOP

Monkey do what monkey did

NEEDS & SEEDS

It's all about the needs & planting these seeds

NO FEAR

No fear life is out of that tear

ONE MIND

Nobody can hide what is in One Mind,
the energy will find all that's left behind

REMIND

The thunder simply shines,
to remind us of our minds

OLD LIE

The unique style is a good old lie

UNTOLD

The things untold
wear these pointless
smiles we hold

GIVING

When you give what you want,
you forget what you don't

TRUTH

The truth has no way,
but we made art everyday

THE WORD

The Word just stood since the day 1 to be Misunderstood

ONE and NONE - book of quotes from Mihailo Dragojevic 2020.

Book of quotes "ONE & NONE" by Mihailo Dragojevic available in PDF

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